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I Do Not Feel Like I Deserve Love

from Normal Human Being by Justin Blackburn

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This incredible song I am speaking over is "Crystal Ball Broken" by Coma Cinema from the album Blue Suicide. Wow, how amazing are they? Check them out! comacinema.bandcamp.com

This incredible poem I am performing is from "You Are Not A Normal Human Being" available at www.virgograypress.com

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I Do Not Feel Like I Deserve Love

I do not feel like I deserve love.
My heart half assed me here.
My shadow burns me up.
I want to cry baby shampoo tears.

I do not feel like I deserve happiness,
still I eat carrots and run around the block,
still I yell and scream about how you should love,
still I refuse to kill myself or shut the fuck up.

So quickly I kiss the rose,
so furiously I melt the snow,
so unconsciously I breathe,
so harshly I try to think myself to know.

I do not feel like I deserve what I desire.
I am a mansion on the hill with dead kids inside.
I am an angry mob attacking one idiot liar.
I am the soft lips of a closeted homosexual afraid to kiss the gay loving
tears I cry.

I do not feel like I deserve myself
I am not delicate enough to be as beautiful as I am.
I am not wonderful enough to be as dumb as everyone else.
I am not strong enough for my thoughts to know who I am.

Love is all I ever wanted to be
but I am just so impatient, stupid, and weak,
all I can do is dream to die
and awaken from this deadly sleep.

This incredible poem I am performing is from "You Are Not A Normal Human Being" available at www.virgograypress.com

This incredible song I am speaking over is "Crystal Ball Broken" by Coma Cinema from the album Blue Suicide. Wow, how amazing are they? Check them out! http://comacinema.bandcamp.com/

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from Normal Human Being, released October 31, 2012
song by Mat Cothran
poem by Justin Blackburn
produced by Amelia Hall

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My name is Justin Blackburn and i am author and poet. This is a collection of performance poems entitled "Normal Human Being" Lots of these are from my latest collection of poetry "You Are Not A Normal Human Being" available at www.virgograypress.com You can buy it and it will make your life better. Lots of wisdom. I love you. You are wonderful. I hope you love yourself. ... more

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